It has been four months since I have left the SunVox community because I have some serious struggles on my Master Degree, but... things are only going hill since this year. Starting with some annoying rent dispute in February and it has been disrupted nearly a month to settle down. With the rent settled, I have to get back onto my study, but... I don't know... I have no sense of feel of being a master because the course is way too overwhelming which I can't even absorb anything before a flood of assignments. As a result, I have receive all assignments in all four subjects, along with a research presentation, and they only give us roughly 2 weeks to finish yet they force us to use some arbitrary rules made by the professors just to strip student's scores away. I truly can't find a single good thing happened since I have return in Mel.

I have completely lost the motivation of learning their subjects at all because the ways of learning is horrendous which it is oppose to how I learn, oppose to how industries actually do stuff, and it only offers too little time; ironically, I even think I have learnt more and being more productive during my study break, considering I have learnt zig with building a conways game of life using raylib and VOXCOM 1610 Assembler Mk2, while learnt blender to model 3D objects and rigging. I don't really know what I have really learnt in my AI Master Degree. Prolog? Jupyter Notebook? Some Ros2 libraries for controlling specific robots? For me, it doesn't really seem to benefit me on my future career path because every topics in the courses are too scattered, and even if I have graduated with the degree, I see nothing valuable, while I have retreated my goal of living in Mel in long term because of my home sick and some other big and small issues which I can't seem to adapt, so I don't care about the point test stream anymore.

At this moment, seeing the deadline coming close, even with my nearly blank state of my assignments, I can't seem to make any progress due to my lost motivation of learning in the school. As a result, I have finally pull my midi keyboard, and open SunVox, to make some tracks. It won't be a SunVox Compo entry because I just started the composition today and it involves my huge orchestral instrument modules.

My master degree? I am going to contact my school tomorrow in person, to see if I can change my Major, to something I truly find joy and beneficial to my career such as Computer engineering or Information Technology; at worst, I will withdraw my Master because of the disappointment and return home country for a break and continue where I have left of my learning progress. If I can't learn anything in the university nor I wish to stay, the Certification is no different from a trash paper and waste of money and time because I already have a well done Bachelor Degree back in the days.

Update 1:

Speaking of contacting to the University, well, it was a mess. I am not sure why can't I contact support in person and I have to reach people through live chat, email or teams meeting. With the live chat, the support told me if I fail a course, you can't extend the visa but to take all the courses at the last semester until you fail again, and this is when I have stopped taken the Uni seriously because they just certainly want us to fail more course so that they can earn more. Thus, changing Program is out of the question, and withdrawing my program is a better way to go because it is basically a sunk cost which I have not much to gain, but I have wasted much more through the program. Insisting to stay with getting a "Paper" doesn't worth it.